My friend died.
I can’t even process it yet. Jason, Shopping Cart Bob, one of my honest-to-god best friends, was killed in a car accident. He was driving home from visiting the northwest. He drove down with Diamond for the day on Monday.
As last visits go, it was pretty fucking perfect. We sat around and laughed. Watched Sharknado and a bunch of Rifftrax Shorts. Had Thai food delivered. Made jokes that nobody else gets. Laughed so hard I ached the next day.
It still says he’s logged in on facebook. His name, little icon of his phone. I don’t feel much of anything yet. I want to write the thoughts that are flooding me, but every time I try I delete it. It’s too raw. He was just here. It keeps welling up.
I miss you, Jason.
COOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORRRRRRRRRRRRRNNNNN
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Oh my god. Oh my GOD. I mean, I never knew him personally, but I was well aware of him, and YOU knew him and. oh my god.
I don’t even have any words that I can express right now, but just know that every inch of me is sending out comfort and sympathy to you and Diamond and his family and other friends.
I am so sorry to hear that, Abbey. I only knew of him through here and elsewhere, but he always sounded like a lovely man. My sympathies.
My sympathies, Abbey. He seemed like a beautiful friend from your descriptions here. I’m so sorry.
I thought that was his RL name but I was afraid to ask you. I can’t even imagine. You’re in my thoughts, Abbey.
Oh my God. I’m so, so sorry. I didn’t know him, but having read about him here (and read comments by him), I know he meant a lot to you.
I’m sorry for your loss.
No words – just deepest sympathies and condolences.
I am so sorry for your loss. I am crying right now even though I haven’t seen you since the infamous garden party, but I still remember having so much with you and Bob and Diamond at 3am hanging out in front of the Lloyd Center theater. I only had fun because all of you were so nice and welcoming, and made me feel like I wasn’t a total dork. Or at least, if I was, there was company. Jason was way too young to be gone this soon, and I will miss him.
I’m so sorry, Abbey. My thoughts go out to you, Diamond, and the rest of Jason’s family and friends.